In 2003-2004 after an amazing conversion experience which removed and dispelled the darkness in my life, through scripture, the sacraments of communion and confession; God spoke to me very clearly. His very first words repeatedly was "Anna Do you Trust Me? Anna Do you Trust Me? ANNA DO YOU TRUST ME?" I eventually said " Yes Lord I trust You" not fully understanding the gravity of what he was asking or saying." Then he said to me "Choices, Choices, CHOICES" Everyday the words which had no real significance at that time rang in my head for a month, and today after looking through the tunnel of the past I understand the Gravity and Meaning of his words . Everything is good when life is well, but when things get awry it is easy to be pinned by FEAR especially the FEAR of failing. It is easy to become paralyzed by the lies that Satan would tell. There is a battle to corrode the mind, will, intellect, soul, body and render us powerless.
It has taken lots of training in the Spirit to trust and discern God's voice" because Satan came to STEAL, KILL AND DESTROY. The bible calls him the "THE FATHER OF LIES" His tactic is all about deception making you doubt God's promises. You better believe it, we are in spiritual warfare and the battle is for your soul. The war continues and it will continue until the end of time.
Our choices can lead to LIFE or DEATH.
It is hard to make the RIGHT CHOICE if you don't TRUST GOD and believe in his WORD. Immerse yourself in scripture. We live in a world that does not understand the power of God and the supernatural unseen forces that work to dispel the power of darkness and evil. We have become a people of the senses, thus silence and solitude makes us uncomfortable and we drum out the voice of God with the ipod, cell phone, Walkman, end less parade of activities. Faith unleashes power of the super natural to act. When trouble comes our fleshly inclination is to panic and we make the wrong decisions. It can come in a multitude of forms, we marry the wrong person, we make the wrong investments, we listen to the wrong people, we indulge in practices that are not becoming of who we are and what God has called us too.
There are two things that God the Father loves and that is obedience and a righteous man (male or female).
The bible says, in Psalm 37 vs 23-37
If the LORD delights in a man's way,
he makes his steps firm;
though he stumble, he will not fall,
for the LORD upholds him with his hand.
I was young and now I am old,
yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken
or their children begging bread.
They are always generous and lend freely;
their children will be blessed.
Turn from evil and do good;
then you will dwell in the land forever.
For the LORD loves the just
and will not forsake his faithful ones.
They will be protected forever,
but the offspring of the wicked will be cut off;
the righteous will inherit the land
and dwell in it forever.
The mouth of the righteous man utters wisdom,
and his tongue speaks what is just.
The law of his God is in his heart;
his feet do not slip.
The wicked lie in wait for the righteous,
seeking their very lives;
but the LORD will not leave them in their power
or let them be condemned when brought to trial.
Wait for the LORD and keep his way.
He will exalt you to inherit the land;
when the wicked are cut off, you will see it.
I have seen a wicked and ruthless man
flourishing like a green tree in its native soil,
but he soon passed away and was no more;
though I looked for him, he could not be found.
Consider the blameless, observe the upright;
there is a future for the man of peace.